My First Post - Introductin

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RIght now at the time I'm writing this, I'm using goodnotes to write this first post down, because the website has yet to be set up and lowkey its a bit complicated for someone who's never created a website, and relying on youtube as my only guidance. Anyways, I wanted to write this now because I just couldn't wait to write down my introduction until the site was finished, so here i am. My name will be kept anonymous for the time being, but you can call me Jim. I will be turning 18 this year and I'm currently studying in a Junior college in Singapore. I would like to call myself a serious aspiring bodybuilder and also personality-wise I guess I'm actually an extrovert who is misconstrued as an introvert because I just have troubles being myself and I believe that I have social anxiety when talking to other people. I think socially I have a lot of disorders like OCD, social anxiety, overthinking but I do really enjoy spending time with other people, and it gives me energy. So I'm like on this great quest to battle my disturbing thoughts and to emerge a better person, I want to journal the struggle to escape from this destructive whirpool of thoughts that plague me. I want to not really show the world that you can overcome this, but just simply to prove that you are never created by God to be a product of your environment, that this isn't a reason for who you want to be or what you will become, that you can choose your fate if you work hard enough. Honestly, speaking I think that was a brain fog but regardless this blog was meant serve as a way to journal down my feelings in a way where the entire world could see this anonymously. I want to improve my self-expression through this avenue, and just be a more sophisticated person overall. I feel like I lack the ability to express myself in real life, it could be because I have no one that I really trust to confess to, or maybe when I was growing up I didn't have that many opportunities to really share my feelings or witnessed my parents talking about their feelings and experiences. They were mostly private and kept to their themselves. There wasn't like a practice where we would share our feelings and how our day went, nor did we spend much quality time with one another. You know as I write, I am getting this feeling that nobody would want to read this but who cares, ultimately I'm writing this blog for myself as a way to improve my self-expression. I want to talk about my experiences in school life, about social media, about the fitness industry, about all the individualistic tips I can give similar aspiring bodybuilders like me, clear out the sirens and noise of social media to listen to themselves and their bodies, about social anxiety, about ways to get started. Just Fitness and Personal Life Issues. I want to share all my feelings of vulnerability and insecurities here where I face no resistance for doing so, and I hope everyone can relate here as they read this, and know that if you're also experience this, you're not alone.Write your text here...